Thursday, April 28, 2016

My Uncoordinated Growth

"Colline you cannot afford data any more?" She asked. I reply, "why?" She like your no longer on 'insta' your snapchat is not active anymore, you only tweet like once or twice in a day of which not all days.
After her accusation/argument I look back at my life in the recent months. Unsurprisingly but unexpectedly i made a few discoveries.

My life is gradually deviating from what it was, the multi-dreamer I was slowly turning to a uni-dreamer. My interests slowly becoming interest.
And in a flash it all hits me. The correct but composition-like answer or reason to my social media demise and her false accusation.
First realism that came to me was my outing life. From a wild animal to a tamed animal now to a home grown pet. Not because I lack the means but because interest wise its at the level of my heel but not Kololo hill. Sometimes I have a responsibility at hand or it's just fatigue.
My outing life explanation led me to my social  vendiagram. The universal, set a sample space of at least three circles was quickly shrinking to the subset of one of the circles. My wonder led me to discover the path I chose, the destiny I chose, the career I chose slowly cut me off a certain group of people even some who I would call tights the closest of friends had got the complement or bar sign on top of them. Our interests and lives were to different to remain on the same page for some in the same book others the same book shelf and a few in the same library.
After all that I still couldn't explain her social media concern then finally it came down to me my phone gallery had changed totally. The camera album which used to be full of selfies, outing captions, bae moments etc was now full of project plans, construction form works, machinery operations and the likes. My playlist had more tutorials podcasts some indie and alternative rock music, and a few voicenotes. compared to the once ever updated playlist. My contact favourites only had titles or commodity names like Eng Brian, Dr Emma, iron bar man, foreman. My text conversations had gone the same direction at least the ones that existed. My downloads were of plans and designs compared to the memes and vines like before.

That's when I realised me and her were not at the same level of responsibility in life. Leading to the death of a rockbond friendship giving birth to a freezing water friendship hoping she will solidify her thinking with time
All in all I realised the age of thought in me had grown up and left my age of life leaving me with a choice to make, 'Grow up or Stay young'  

Monday, July 6, 2015

I.I.C.T.B.T.D. (IF I COULD TURN BACK THE DAYS)

I.I.C.T.B.T.D.

If I Could Turn Back The Days

if I could go back just a few years and lots of days before today maybe then life could be different maybe my path could be different maybe my world would be different

But would there really be a difference
Would I really have the clearance
Would I have survived the ignorance that lay just infront of me right before the 4-5s of my life

Maybe I would have been a star
Or it could have been the start of either the rise of my life or maybe worse the demise of my strive

All in all if I had gotten a chance to turn the tables where my threes seat and discuss my life or argue about my destinies  I don't think I would..,
not even have the courage

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

What would it takes

What would it take for you to believe

What would it take for you to accept

What is HE supposed to do for you to know that he cares

Since you keep breaking him day in day out
Good news that doesnt matter

Because HE is one of no last chance

Take time to reflect to what really matters think forever not earth

PRAY TO HIM TODAY AND ASK HIM FOR ANYTHING ESPECIALLY FORGIVENESS
BUT NEVER FORGET TO BE THANKFUL

Sunday, April 5, 2015

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Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

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